Yes, I know I SUCK!

Shame on me! I convinced myself to get back into blogging and I haven't done a DARN thing! I haven't posted since Maybe Halloween? I don't know know if anyone even reads this thing but yesterday I was being bored productive at work and read through my first few months of posting. I maybe cried a few tears, it's crazy to see how far Ryan and I have come and I love that I able to look back at my feelings and emotions and see the difference in our personalities and attitudes! So I figured I could do a tiny post and a little "getting to know you". Enjoy!

• Have you ever had something happen to you that you thought was bad but it turned out to be for the best? Honestly, I would have to say letting my in-laws into my life. I have been screwed over by a few of them and I have continued to allow them in my life to continually get f'd over! I have learned A LOT about myself and A LOT about what I NEED to do to keep my self together, to do the right thing, and when to just walk away.
• What was one of the best parties you’ve ever been to? I have had a lot of good parties in my day, everything from Ugly Sweaters, to bbqs, to reunions so I can't say that I do have a favorite! Anytime I am around my family & friends is a favorite time for me!
• What was the last movie, TV show or book that made you cry or tear up? This is so cliche' I feel but Sunday I was watching Kourtney and Kim take New York. I have been in a feud with my one and only sister since Halloween and when her and Khloe were able to talk out their feelings it made me cry. I ALWAYS want my sister to feel as though she can come to me with anything and EVERYTHING! I am her only sister and I just want her to be with me through everything! I miss her so much and have tried numerous times to reach out to her. ::Hi Dani, I miss you!:: 

• What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done? Again, I am going to resort back to my in-laws I love so deeply, and hate so strongly. For the last time I have been beaten over the head by them. To the point of where it was making me re-think myself and putting a real damper on my self esteem. I know I am not a "cunt" nor a loser bitch and I know I am right for my husband so who are they to say? FINALLY I had to make the decision to CUT them out of my life and never look back. I can't, if I haven't made them like me in the past 5 years what is going to change? I hate to have to do that to family but for me that's what it takes.

• What was the last experience that made you a stronger person? I am going to have to go with the feud I am in with my sister it breaks me down everyday and I think about her everyday! I just want the best for her and I want our old friendship back. Thus, has made me a stronger person by knowing that God has a plan. There is a reason why we are being put through this and all I can do is look at the positive side and faith that one day our relationship will repair itself.
• What did you do growing up that got you into trouble? I sluffed school a lot, my sister and I would ALWAYS miss curfew, and there were some days I would just leave for days on end because I was so sick of my parents. Knowing what I know now, I shouldn't have put my parents through the pain of worrying if I am okay because as they are growing older they are starting to worry me. My dad has caused me my first GREY hair!
• When was the last time you had an amazing meal? Husband and I went out to Red Rock Brewing Comp on Saturday night and I had shrimp scallop with green beans and mashed potatoes it was AWESOME!
• What’s the best/worst gift you’ve ever given/received? This is super cheesy but I met my husband on my 18th birthday therefore, I think of him as the BEST gift I have ever received however, my puppy Chewy is a close 2nd! I can't say I haven't gotten a bad gift most of the people that do know me know me well enough to get the hints I drop around my birthday or Christmas! (;

• What do you miss most about being a kid? The stress-free lifestyle, being able to take a nap whenever I needed one, not having to plan out my future to the T. Paying bills, driving a car, pursuing well in a career. I mean I knew someday I would have all of these things but you never really imagine how hard, yet rewarding it is.
• What is your first memory of being really excited? When I got my Yorkie Freckles for my 4th Christmas. I will never forget my dad bringing her up the stairs to show my sister and I. One of the most memorable experiences of my life!
• What was the first thing you bought with your own money? I was EXTREMELY dependant on Ryan when I first moved out with him I didn't have a car or even a BLOW dryer! I know I know, deprived child here! So I would have to say the very 1st thing I bought on MY own and picked out on my OWN is my Mercedes C230 best purchase EVER! ((:
• When was the last time you were nervous? Let's get this straight now, I am a NERVOUS wreck about EVERYTHING. Anxiety, O.C.D call it what you want. I had to take my doggy to the vet on Saturday for her well puppy exam and I always get so nervous they are going to tell me my puppy is dying. Yes, she is my child. 

• What is something you learned in the last week? I have learned that hard work REALLY does pay off. We are doing a lot of home improvements this year preparing for what I hope to be a Baby Barras next year so seeing everything being done and being able to pay for it with cash feels oh, so good!
• What story does your family always tell about you? God, do you even want to know?? When I was 4 yrs old I would call everyone a "dildo" my mom made me look it up in the dictionary and she made sure I understood what it meant and if I wanted to continue to call people that then I could. And maybe I did.. that's a classic story!!
• At what age did you become an adult? I would say this past year of my being 22 and having a "BIG GIRL" job and being promoted and actually working really hard on it has helped me become a grown up/adult. Also, have had a lot of trials and tribulations thrown at me. I have just believed in God and kept faith that he will work everything out the way they are supposed to be!

Scchwing!

Halloween 2011

since my boss is so totally awesome he let us dress up for Halloween. Of course my mini me & I dressed up together. Please remember that I work with all dudes so the thought of dressing up 'sexy and cute" was just out of the question! This is what we came up with

WAYNE'S WORLD!

Sweet stuff I know!

uber obsessiveness

I want her dress, & her shoes, & her hair, & her legs! I WANT to be like HER! Anyways, just felt the need to post about my obsessiveness with Carrie and all of her fabulous dresses from last night! Makes me want to say YEE-HAW!! Now, will someone point me in the right direction for all of this Shutterfly stuff? I know last year they had the blog post and you got a certain percentage off! HELP! Thanks ladies!!

HAVE to share

No, I am not trying to brag or anything I just really like the way this picture turned out! Enjoy! <3

gettin' paper

Ello lovelies.
I am updating my iPhone 4 with the new IOS5 softeware (thanks to my brochacho Dean). So I figured while I sit here and babysit my baby (iPhone) I mains well do something productive and bloggity blog. I am not sure if anyone even reads this thing but hey, I do it for fun! Some of you may already know that I work at a car dealership. Yes, full of gross super pushy men just tryin' to get a dolla out of you. It's really not like that, it's more like I have 7 dads, 4 brothers, 1 mom, and 1 lil' sis. We are a BIG family and we even fight like one. ::waves to boss:: I started out as a receptionist about a year ago and worked my little butt off to try and get a higher position. Working in a "mans world" can get really tough sometimes, they forget that you have feelings, that you p.m.s, that you don't like to be cat called every hour of the day it's really a rough life! Wow, I feel like this is scattered everywhere! I was in my receptionist position for about 9 months of the 13 I have been there. Yes, it was like a very loooong 9 month pregnancy. As the receptionist you are the dealership "bitch" (if you will) you do everything and don't really get credit for most of it. I proudly like to say that now I am 2nd in command for the title. Mama's proud that I worked my way up in such a short amount of time, I am now ::drum roll:: Financial Assistant. I feel like this is all kind of running together so, in short this is what I do

• Break down all of the deals. Once you sign your paperwork the deal is brought to me and I make sure all of the needed paperwork is sent to the financial institution.
• If we (Not saying "I" because I don't make mistakes [;) miss any paperwork such as drivers license, proof of income, proof of home address then I will call the customer and get it handled.
• I then cap out the deal and make sure the salesmen and finance manager is paid on the deal.

I also, still do a lot of my receptionist duties that are but not limited too:

• Making sure the vehicle is reported sold to the manufacturer
• Doing all of the customer incentives like military, valued owner etc.
• Backing up receptionist on phones when needed.

All in all I have it pretty good. I call my own hours, my boss is THE DREAM BOSS, I have an extremely flexible schedule AND one of my best friends got my old job as the receptionist. Doesn't get much better then that eh? Oh, & I get a good deal on cars, car parts, paint jobs, window tints etc. My Benzie is pretty much souped up because of that place. Like I work there to just pay money to have my car all trickitty tricked out! Hopefully that gives you a quick brief summary on my what I call "big girl" job. It's very very stressful at times but I can't complain! ((:

My Lexie Lou & I.

Yes, my work bff, mini me, little, sister call her whatever, I am sure she has been called worse!

good in the hood

I know I know it's been a WEEK! Right after I blogged about being a better blog I fall off the wagon, I have good news though. Chewy is back to normal! Reason being sister in law is OUT! I am just so glad our little family is all back to normal and functioning how we have been for the past 3+ years! I will save the drama for my mama about sister in laws depature. No really, it will be best for all of us. My mother always taught me "If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all." I really need to start abiding by this. So I promise as soon as I am not exhasuted from working all day I will catch you up on my job. Since, duh that is all I know nowadays!

Millan

Ya know... this dude

I don't think I have mentioned that he is my idol, hero, & soul mate! I mean c'mon what dog loving lady doesn't want a man that enjoys them just as much as her! Eh? Seriously though here lets get real! My husbands little sister has moved in with us, it has been quite the adjustment for all of us but the one that it is impacting the most is our bordier collie. I am not sure what is going on with her; if its the change in our "pack", the fact that lil' sis took Chewys bedroom, or even the fact that maybe Chewy is feeling just a little left out. I wish I knew.. I wish I could snap my fingers and make her be better. I have been pretty upset about it all day Chewy is a very very obedient pup always has been, shes been easy to train, helped train our Gus and is my protector when R isn't home so what has she been doing as of late?

• Clingy- just so clingy! She won't let you leave her sight, me especially!
• In your face, constantly in your face. If her head isn't on your lap then she is jumping on you putting her face in yours.
• Being a little more aggressive then normal. Nothing major just more fiesty!

I know those may not seem like major things to you all but with how great of a dog Chewy is it is quite out of character! Given, sister hasn't been around dogs growing up so I am trying my hardest to be patient and do what is best for all of us but sometimes it gets very frustrating. For the past 3 years Chewy has been 3rd in the pack now she feels it is unstable. I hate it. I hate that she is out of place, in her own home. Not sure if the rest of R's family sees it the way that I do but I know some of my dog loving bloggy friends will understand me. Give me advice! Feed me all of your knowledge, what can I do? Training? New boundaries set? Re-creating the feel of a pack? I am just not sure. This weeekend I do plan on going and picking up this. Maybe.. it will help.. maybe it won't.

I know I am supposed to be updating with all the fun "exciting" stuff that has been going on, but at this moment Chewy is my #1 priority! Help help help!

"The number one cause of death in dogs today is euthanasia. Why so many dogs gone bad? A dog's temperament is a direct result of the owners ability to understand them and give them what they instinctually need as a canine animal. There are no bad dogs... just uneducated owners."