2nd BIGGEST day of my life!

Yesterday 4/17/2012 was the day I have been waiting for, for almost 6 weeks now! Forget Vegas I was anxious for 11:30 a.m on this day! We FINALLY got to see our little baby & hear that sweet sweet heartbeat! It was beating like a lion & we couldn't be MORE excited! People told me that I would cry when I heard it but I didn't. Not a single part of me wanted to cry, I was all smiles & so was my wonderful husband! It was the sweetest, most calming thing in this entire world. Knowing that our little peanut was sustaining life inside of me, depending on me, & growing was the MOST amazing thing I have ever experienced. I think I will say this again when we find out the gender (more on my reveal party to come) but I looked into my husbands eyes as he was staring at the ultrasound & I could see so much joy, and love, and happiness in his eyes. Just like the day I married him. 4 years later we are preparing to welcome a new family member! It's weird to say family of 3 but music to my ears! We finally have something to look forward to other then doting on ourselves!

I can't stop staring at this beautiful little thing my husband & I have been so blessed to create. Is it a he or she? My husband and I are dead set on a girl, my family and friends think it's a BOY. We will find out on May 22nd and celebrate with a Gender Reveal party with family on the 23rd! Until then I have another ultrasound on May 2nd & it can't come fast enough! Bring on the party planning! I will post with ideas soon! I was moved back a week at my appointment so I am due 11/20 husband thinks I will be 11/22 on Thanksgiving! Also will be taking my 10 week bump picture this weekend!

9 weeks

I don't have much of a belly yet so I am not going to take bump pictures till maybe this weekend or after I go to my doctor appointment on Tuesday! I got crafty after seeing this chalkboard on pinterest, I have chicken scratch so I decided to go with the markers instead of chalk. It was a little harder but I think cuter! Love it!

Now here is a survey for your viewing pleasure:

• How far along?  9w 5d
• Total weight gain:  I haven't weighed myself since finding out I was pregnant. I have always been totally paranoid about my weight. My weight before getting pregnant was 105 so that is my post body goal!
• Maternity clothes?  Just a beband so I can wear my cute jeans comfortably! I am loving dresses though!
• Stretch marks? None. Crossing my fingers I get lucky!
• Sleep: I love sleep. I wake up maybe twice a night anxious but it doesn't take my long to get back to sleep! I wish I could pass out on my tummy again though!
• Best moment this week:  I have been a sickly little thing and I don't want to take anything so I'm going to have to say I haven't had a great week.
• Miss Anything? FOOD & Pepsi! I am so so picky as of late NOTHING sounds good!
• Movement: None yet.
• Food cravings: Anything salty!
• Food aversions: Meat. Ew ew ew.
• Gender: We do not know yet!
• Labor Signs: Oh my no!
• Symptoms: Back pain, gas, headaches, bloat
• Belly Button in or out? In
• Wedding rings on or off? On.
• Looking forward to: Our 1st appointment on Tuesday & hearing that sweet heartbeat.

Easter!

Easter is my favorite Holiday! Of course, I always seem to get sick crippled when my favorite things come around once a year! This Easter was none the less a very good one well spent with family just how I like it. I can't belive this is our last year as a family of 2 for Holidays! I can't wait for Thanksgiving & Christmas as they will mean so much more to us then before! Here are a couple pictures of the way we celebrated!

Exactly 4 years ago husband proposed to me in the most clever tricky way! Plus again, my FAVORITE Holiday! We look oh so young! (Yes, I am an instagram whore)

The CUTE little ducky we bought for our CUTE babe!

Us at husbands sisters house with our niece and nephews! I LOVE being a part of this sweet little family bond we have!

"Peep Kabobs"

I don't like Peeps or anything. SMH.

Hoppy Easta Peeps!

shopping for who?

New shoes for me? No baby.
New toys for me? No baby.
New clothes for me? No baby.

All I think about is baby baby baby! I don't even like to shop for myself anymore! I just want to buy little blankets/toys/shoes anything and everything I can get my hands on this early into my pregnancy! Hubby doesn't mind either our countertop is being cluttered with all things baby as we don't want to put them away we just like to stare! Once we find out the gender shopping is on like donkey kong!

Viva Las Pregnant

This past weekend hubby & I enjoyed a nice trip to Las Vegas! I know, Vegas pregnant? That was my thought exactly! We had planned the trip about a month before we found out that we were expecting and had our hopes up on a nice relaxing trip! That it was! We planned this for my birthday which was Saturday, March 31st. ::throws confetti:: & our 5 year "dating anniversary", Yes, we are that cheesy couple that celebrates such special holidays! We planned on leaving Friday morning sometime around 7 a.m or 8 as per usual our bad luck got in the way! My tire was low and luckily my smart handy man hubby decided we should have it checked before taking off because of the harsh roads and 4 hour drive he'd rather be safe then sorry. Thank God he did, the tire place we initally took it too said there was a nail too close to the wall of the tire to just patch it. It requried a whole new tire! Keep in mind I just bought tires for my Mercedez a mere 4 months ago, I was so close to relaxing on my vacation I could taste it. Or was that the bagel I scarffed beforehand? Anywho, we called almost every tire shop nearby and NO ONE could have a tire in within a reasonable hour for us to get back on the road. Miss priss pregnant was close to a total mental bitch fit. I called my work, I work for a car dealership with a parts & service center and what do you know.. my boys came to the rescue! They had my tire in and isntalled within 45 minutes and we were good to go! The drive SUCKED. I was hungry, hott, miserable, & tired! Once we got there we checked into our hotel room. We stayed at the Flamingo everything is PINK and so perfect for my birthday festivities!!

If you are visting Vegas soon I highly reccomend this hotel! It is newly renovated & we actually updated to a deluxe room for only $10 more a night! Bliss I tell you! We got checked in and I changed into some good prego walking shoes & we hit the shopping town! We were right in front of Ceasars Palace so it worked out perfect for the Forum Shops! We shopped till we dropped had dinner at Margaritaville & called it a night around 11p.m.

The next day we woke up on my birthday and headed for a yummy breakfast & to shop a wee bit more! We of course had to get something for our little bambino! Since it was such a special occassion we decided to announce our pregnancy on Facebook I mean after all it was the best birthday gift I've ever received! We bought these adorable Tiny Toms & a Carlos shirt perfect for my hubby & posted both pictures with awesome captions on Facebook for all of our friends & family!

"5 years ago today God blessed me with the most AMAZING birthday present of all! 5 years alter we are expecting our first baby Barras! we are SO excited!!"

"preparing for daddyhood. baby Barras coming in November! i am SO excited" per husband!

We have been overwhelmed with heartfelt comments & over the top excitement from all of our friends & family. I never knew someone so little could bring this much happines and joy to those around me! I cannot wait to explore this jounrney with my wonderful, supporting, loving, caring, handsome, funny, inspirational, hardworking husband!!

Sunday we enjoyed a nice Krispy Kreme & headed for Home Sweet Home! I sure missed my furbabies!!

Life is changed for the better forever!

On 3/15 my life was changed forever!

Yes, I am pregnant! My husband and I are so overjoyed and are expecting to welcome our little one into the world this November! We couldn't be more surprised or thrilled! Ever since I saw those lines my feelings, thoughts, movements, sleep habits, eating habits, & the way I view life have been changed in a way I could have never imagined! I know I know, you are dying to know the deets so here it goes.

02/04: first day of my last period
02/10: last day of my period.

On my birth control I normally have my period on the 10th of every month. I took my Nuvaring out early because I was having the WORST stomach cramps and just felt horrible. Started my period, ended my period and waited. I waited to start my period again before starting on my birth control.

03/04: ready for my period
03/06: 2 days come & go
03/10: thinking I could start since I normally did on the 10th
03/12: planing on testing
03/13: chickened out.
03/15: sister in law MADE me test. POSITIVE!!
03/16: tested again & another POSITIVE!

So there you have it! Was it planned? Not so much, are we ready Yes! Are we excited? Over the moon! I had no idea I was pregnant other then my missed period. I wasn't planning on telling anyone until my first appointment which is on April 17th. I will be 10 weeks along by then. However, the excitment & anticipation got the best of us! We first told a few friends, my parents, & my work. Our support system has been unreal and our family & friends are SO ready to join us on this amazing powerful journey! My parents are going to be 1st time Grandparents & I think it's safe to say that they are ready too! I want to document all of these amazing things going on in our lives so that night when I am rocking my sweet angel to sleep I can remember how special & real this all is/was! I will be posting on how we announced to the "Facebook World", my vacation to Las Vegas as a pregnant birthday chick, our newest baby items, & of course our baby celebrations down the road!

Yes, I know I SUCK!

Shame on me! I convinced myself to get back into blogging and I haven't done a DARN thing! I haven't posted since Maybe Halloween? I don't know know if anyone even reads this thing but yesterday I was being bored productive at work and read through my first few months of posting. I maybe cried a few tears, it's crazy to see how far Ryan and I have come and I love that I able to look back at my feelings and emotions and see the difference in our personalities and attitudes! So I figured I could do a tiny post and a little "getting to know you". Enjoy!

• Have you ever had something happen to you that you thought was bad but it turned out to be for the best? Honestly, I would have to say letting my in-laws into my life. I have been screwed over by a few of them and I have continued to allow them in my life to continually get f'd over! I have learned A LOT about myself and A LOT about what I NEED to do to keep my self together, to do the right thing, and when to just walk away.
• What was one of the best parties you’ve ever been to? I have had a lot of good parties in my day, everything from Ugly Sweaters, to bbqs, to reunions so I can't say that I do have a favorite! Anytime I am around my family & friends is a favorite time for me!
• What was the last movie, TV show or book that made you cry or tear up? This is so cliche' I feel but Sunday I was watching Kourtney and Kim take New York. I have been in a feud with my one and only sister since Halloween and when her and Khloe were able to talk out their feelings it made me cry. I ALWAYS want my sister to feel as though she can come to me with anything and EVERYTHING! I am her only sister and I just want her to be with me through everything! I miss her so much and have tried numerous times to reach out to her. ::Hi Dani, I miss you!:: 

• What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done? Again, I am going to resort back to my in-laws I love so deeply, and hate so strongly. For the last time I have been beaten over the head by them. To the point of where it was making me re-think myself and putting a real damper on my self esteem. I know I am not a "cunt" nor a loser bitch and I know I am right for my husband so who are they to say? FINALLY I had to make the decision to CUT them out of my life and never look back. I can't, if I haven't made them like me in the past 5 years what is going to change? I hate to have to do that to family but for me that's what it takes.

• What was the last experience that made you a stronger person? I am going to have to go with the feud I am in with my sister it breaks me down everyday and I think about her everyday! I just want the best for her and I want our old friendship back. Thus, has made me a stronger person by knowing that God has a plan. There is a reason why we are being put through this and all I can do is look at the positive side and faith that one day our relationship will repair itself.
• What did you do growing up that got you into trouble? I sluffed school a lot, my sister and I would ALWAYS miss curfew, and there were some days I would just leave for days on end because I was so sick of my parents. Knowing what I know now, I shouldn't have put my parents through the pain of worrying if I am okay because as they are growing older they are starting to worry me. My dad has caused me my first GREY hair!
• When was the last time you had an amazing meal? Husband and I went out to Red Rock Brewing Comp on Saturday night and I had shrimp scallop with green beans and mashed potatoes it was AWESOME!
• What’s the best/worst gift you’ve ever given/received? This is super cheesy but I met my husband on my 18th birthday therefore, I think of him as the BEST gift I have ever received however, my puppy Chewy is a close 2nd! I can't say I haven't gotten a bad gift most of the people that do know me know me well enough to get the hints I drop around my birthday or Christmas! (;

• What do you miss most about being a kid? The stress-free lifestyle, being able to take a nap whenever I needed one, not having to plan out my future to the T. Paying bills, driving a car, pursuing well in a career. I mean I knew someday I would have all of these things but you never really imagine how hard, yet rewarding it is.
• What is your first memory of being really excited? When I got my Yorkie Freckles for my 4th Christmas. I will never forget my dad bringing her up the stairs to show my sister and I. One of the most memorable experiences of my life!
• What was the first thing you bought with your own money? I was EXTREMELY dependant on Ryan when I first moved out with him I didn't have a car or even a BLOW dryer! I know I know, deprived child here! So I would have to say the very 1st thing I bought on MY own and picked out on my OWN is my Mercedes C230 best purchase EVER! ((:
• When was the last time you were nervous? Let's get this straight now, I am a NERVOUS wreck about EVERYTHING. Anxiety, O.C.D call it what you want. I had to take my doggy to the vet on Saturday for her well puppy exam and I always get so nervous they are going to tell me my puppy is dying. Yes, she is my child. 

• What is something you learned in the last week? I have learned that hard work REALLY does pay off. We are doing a lot of home improvements this year preparing for what I hope to be a Baby Barras next year so seeing everything being done and being able to pay for it with cash feels oh, so good!
• What story does your family always tell about you? God, do you even want to know?? When I was 4 yrs old I would call everyone a "dildo" my mom made me look it up in the dictionary and she made sure I understood what it meant and if I wanted to continue to call people that then I could. And maybe I did.. that's a classic story!!
• At what age did you become an adult? I would say this past year of my being 22 and having a "BIG GIRL" job and being promoted and actually working really hard on it has helped me become a grown up/adult. Also, have had a lot of trials and tribulations thrown at me. I have just believed in God and kept faith that he will work everything out the way they are supposed to be!