2 months!

Already, my sweet boy is 2 months old! He hasn't had his 2 month well check  yet but he did go to the doctor yesterday for his first ever cold. Poor guy has a pretty stuffed nose, good thing mama is home to take good care of him. I go back to work next Wednesday and I literally feel like I am going to die. I am merely going back for my own entertainment just 3 days a week but it makes me sad deep down I know it is the best decision for my family I just need to keep reminding myself of that!

Dear Krew,
You are 2 months old now and growing right before our eyes. Every morning when I get you out of your crib I feel so blessed to be your mama. The first time we ever saw you smile brought tears to our eyes, you truly are our greatest blessing! What a fun funny baby you are, very particular about what you do and don't like just like mom. You have dads hairline, his chin, and his ears. We think you may have mamas blue eyes and you have my nose for sure! Grandma and Grandpa are so smitten by you and I think you will be able to get everything past your Aunt Danielle! Your cousins love you and we are all excited for the good times we have ahead! Until next month baby boy remember mama loves you!


I saw God today.

Where did I leave off? Oh, right clenching my fists at 3:30 AM thinking I was experiencing a VERY painful braxton, I somehow drifted off back to sleep until husband woke me up at 6:30. He was off hunting and I was on my own for the day, I was sent home the night before so I figured I was okay to send him off up the mountain. I laid in bed clinging onto my pug Gus thinking, praying, and begging him to rid of some of my pain. I knew he would have if he could. I was texting my best friend Lexie all morning debating on going into work or not, I figured it would take my mind off the pain. I got out of bed and through my hair in a bun, not knowing today was THE day. I am so mad at myself all week I had been curling my hair in hopes of having fabulous hair for labor but nope not today. I put some sweats and a hoodie on drove into work. On my 20 minute freeway drive I had about 2 contractions I don't know how I didn't drive my car off the side. I hobbled into my office which I share with my best friend Lexie and sat down around 9:00 am experiencing another contraction. I figured at that point I should maybe time them since the 2 in the car were about 10 minutes apart. There I sat for 2 hours not doing any work, sulking in pain and complaining to my poor co-worker/bff. Around 10:30 I got a call from Ryan letting me know that he was headed up another mountain and he didn't think that he would have service so he was letting me know he would be home around 3:00 that afternoon, of course I said okay. No more then 5 minutes later I had another contraction hit, I was in tears finally after some convincing from Lexie I called Ryan and told him it wasn't a good idea for him to go up that mountain and he needed to head home. I stayed at work a little longer and finally gave up I couldn't fight the pain I was feeling I hopped in my car and called my nurse. I remember the nurse telling me to head in that I sounded like I was in a lot of pain, which I was. I was just too scared to get sent home again for the 4th time embarrassing I tell you. I called my mom and just broke down if I wasn't in labor then there was something seriously wrong because the pain was almost unbearable, she said "I think I get to meet my Grandson today". I will never forget that. I was rushed with excitement! I finally arrived home around 11:00 where husband happily met me. I had a follow up appointment that day at 2:45 so we figured we would time my contractions until than. While staying in touch with my nurse who was encouraging me to just head in I was determined to not be sent home again, there I lie on the couch sobbing praying for someone to relieve the pain. It was officially the worst pain I had ever felt in my entire life!
(Our last picture as a family of 2 just us.)


By this point my contractions were about 6-7 minutes apart, I had a good one hit at 1:45 and finally told Ryan that I had to go in, I could not stand the pain any longer I had been dealing with it since 3:30 that morning! I was exhausted, I remember hitting every red light on the way hoping I had everything I needed. I stood at L&D check in crying I was in major pain and the lady knew it. Finally I was hooked up to monitors and I remember my heaven sent angel Jenna telling me that I was dilated to a 3 and they were going to keep me. I was progressing fast, I called my mom and let her know that she was right and we were going to have a new handsome family member! Husband and I were so ecstatic. I remember my Facebook status letting everyone know "Krew is just as spontaneous as his mama, and he is on his way"! Ryan of course was starving and since I was only dilated to a 6 he decided he would run down to the cafeteria, my mom dad and sister were in the room keeping me company. By the time he returned I was at a 10, he ate as fast as I have ever seen him eat, the catheter had been blocking the rest of my cervix from thinning and Krew was sunny side up there we waiting another hour for me to finish thinning and Krew to turn! I remember Dr. Brown saying "He has a ton of hair!" I was thinking just like his mama I was so ready to meet him, I remember the presence I felt from my Grandmother who passed in 2006, I needed her there more then I had ever needed her before. There is not doubt in my mind that she was there with me, encouraging me and keeping Krew and I safe I can't thank God enough for that moment in time when I had her here with me again they both knew I needed her and he delivered. I remember looking otuside and it was snowing, it was a beautiful sight and I hate snow! (later, I was told the storm put a TON of women in labor and most born were boys!)  After 1 hour of pushing I was exhausted the Dr told me I had about 2 more pushes I asked for it to be 1 big push!!

At 8:27 the most precious, beautiful, inspiring soul met eyes with me. In that moment I am forever changed. Meeting  his eyes for the first time was the most amazing thing I have ever experienced better than anything I ever will experience! I cry thinking about that moment in time, when the clock stopped ticking when time stood completely still. I finally had my baby boy he was in safe in my arms. After being examined for his lungs since he was early I was able to hold him and my mom, sister, and best friend walked in. I was over joyed and so ready to share him with the world. I was tired, so tired. I put my cheetah on and put a happy face on! I won't feel you with the nonsense of the hospital, just know he is the best thing that has happened to me. I love this boy and I am so proud to be his mama. He #1 fan, his best friend, his confidant, and his first love. ::swoon::

 
 

Birth Story Part I

This is by far the best story of my life. Ever. Better then any fairytale or dream. I am going to start this from Thursday October 18th. I had my weekly doctors appointment as per usual but this time I had an ultrasound my OB wanted to check my fluids, well they were low. Long story short I needed to have another ultrasound and a non stress test. I sat in the chair for an hour listening to my sweet babies heartbeat and feeling each contraction pretty hard. Nothing to be admitted for but they were strong. I passed the tests and was sent home a happy  sore pissed off camper!

The weekend was great, I hung out with friends hubby and I were able to go out on a date:
instagram caption: Last night out as 2 maybe?
I didn't believe it but it was!
 
Here is my last picture I took Sunday night so sore and so swollen I had only cleaned my house 70 times that day.
36 weeks 4 days

Fast forward to Monday October 22nd. I woke up around 7 AM to let my puppies out and GUSH. I ran to the toilet, sat down and peed. Had my water just broke? Am I leaking amniotic fluid? Is my baby going to dry up? Where are my contractions? Am I going to die? Should I go to the hospital? I laid in my bed going back and forth on going into L&D or not, finally I figured I better high tail my booty in just to keep my baby safe and keep my peace of mind. Husband was hunting so my best friend met me there to sit with me so I wasn't scared out of my mind. We sat, and sat, and sat. They checked my amniotic fluid and informed me that if my fluid was below a 5 I would be induced. I was nervous I wasn't full term and had no idea to expect. Another doctor came in to recheck my levels, she cleared me for the low fluid but wanted to monitor me for a bit longer. After a few hours of laying helpless on the hospital bed with my ass out of the gown I was informed I had probably just peed my pants, my fluid was low though. By this time hubby was off the mountain and had met me at the hospital he sat there with me we; held hands, and talked, and dreamed about what our little man was going to look like. I was getting excited, they then told me I was fine to go home and wait until my due date and to stay on bedrest unless I had any further complications. I cried, I had never ever cried so hard in my whole entire life. I was so swollen, so tired, and so uncomfortable! My husband just held me and let me cry, I was so done and so ready to meet my baby. The light at the end of the tunnel had faded and I knew I was going to be pregnant forever and my body was going to explode. We drove home and that was the worst darkest saddest drive home of my life I had lost all hope of meeting my baby soon. Somehow I managed to fall asleep, actually I cried myself to sleep. Who am I kidding? The next Tuesday morning I woke up fists clenched in the fetal position not knowing I was about to experience the most beautiful experience of my life. I saw God that day.

Private

Since the arrival of my sweet little peanut, I am scared of the world. I don't want anyone or anything hurting my baby. There are some nasty people in this world and some I do not want knowing about my life, there; I am going private. If you'd still like to follow our blog please send me an email at skbarras@gmail.com. I am not even sure if you ladies still read this or not but I will be documenting all things Krew. Birth story, milestones, family traditions etc. Hope to hear from some of my favorites! Happy Tuesday!!

Welcome

Yes, my absence means I had my sweet baby boy! Please Welcome:
 
Krew A. Barras
 
After 13 1/2 hours of labor and 7 of those at home we finally welcomed our baby boy!
 
5 pds. 6 oz
18 inches long
10/23/2012
8:27 p.m
 
I will post my birth story as soon as I get done snuggling my baby, words cannot express my happiness.

36 weeks!!

 
 
How far along?
36 weeks + 3 days!!

 
Total weight gain/loss:
Officially hit 30 pounds. Waahh waahh wahh
 
Sleep:
What does that mean? I have constant contractions that wake me up!
 
Best moment this week:
I'm not even sure anymore my days/weeks are starting to blend together! I am all caught up on laundry so that's a plus!

Movement:
He is out of room. I don't feel him near as much as I did last week, poor guy has no where to go!


Symptoms:
Nausea actually in the mornings!
 
Food cravings:
Ew I don't even know?

 
Food aversions:
Red Meat.
 
Gender:
All blue! ((:

Labor Signs?
Contractions and cramping!!
 
Belly Button in or out?
What belly button?

What I miss:
Everything!
Working out, Sleeping

What I am looking forward to:
Running!!
 
Weekly Wisdom:
Stay Calm things will happen when God is ready.
 
Milestones:
I am ready. I made some padsicles this afternoon. Seriously if Krew came everything is ready!!

Update

(36 weeks)
 
This is me sitting at the doctors office admiring my sweet little boy who is not so comfy inside! I had my first weekly check up today. My doctor checked the amniotic fluid via ultrasound and seemed concerned that it was too low so I was sent to the lab for another ultrasound. After an hour of ultrasound and being monitored I was set up. Still completely thinned and boys head is very very low. If I make it to next Thursday and my fluids are still low or lower then they are now we will discuss induction. A word I never ever thought I would use with my 1st pregnancy! I just want to keep all of the details written down, I sure have some things to use against Krew when he is older! (; I feel my body prepping and I need to take the time to mentally get in the game. My bags aren't packed and stuff is scattered all over the house! Tonight I know what I will be doing. My sisters birthday is Saturday and we would all love for him to join us! Here is to making it another week!!


I must pack some of these with me in bag! They are so delicious!
 
 
  • Need laundry done
  • Need to paint my nails
  • Need to put makeup on everyday in case it's time
 
xoxo


Krew's Hospital Bag

I can't believe I am blogging about this! I am seriously so completely o.c.d when it comes to Krew's little hospital bag! I am not going to show his going home outfit, you all will just have to wait for that! (; Here is a basic list of what I packed I have heard he doesn't need much it seems easier to me for him to stay in what the nurses put him in so they aren't always changing him and messing with this temperature poor fella isn't here for dress up! So here is a short but basic list.

  • A cute swaddle blanket. I don't dig the hospital ones very much they just seem so hospitally and everyone has them!
  • A burp rag because a dear friend made it and it's cute.
  • A set of pajamas with a football on the butt of course. I doubt we use it but you never know.
  • An outfit in case we have an accident in his going home one!
  • A tinsy pair of socks in case his feetsies get cold at night.
  • Some booties to go with his home outfit.
  • A plain white long sleeve onsie.
  • A binki in case breastfeeding doesn't go as planned.
  • A few diapers since I hear the hospital ones are size 1s we think our little guy will me well, little.
  • And a pack of wipes in case we need it on the way home etc.
I am also bringing along his Boppy pillow so I can have the lactation consultant help me properly breastfeed with it. The car seat is already in the car and I also have a sweet blanket my Grandmother made for him because it gets cold here in November! If there is anything I maybe missing or tips that you think could help please share!! There are only 11 days till I am term it's so crazy to me! You will see my ass on the treadmill walking this little boy out of me! I can't wait to hold him, and I cannot wait to see my husband lock eyes with his first born son. (tears)



xoxo

35/35

How far along?
35 weeks!!
For some reason my whole pregnancy I have been looking forward to this post! I am so close and 35 days sounds sooooo short!
Total weight gain/loss:
I am still hanging at 26 pds and am really happy with this! The doctor says it's a great healthy weight. My goal is to not get above 30 pounds!
Sleep:
Tylenol PM plus the cool breeze from my window is helping me sleep like a baby. (Why do they say that? Babies don't sleep!) I still wake up at least once to potty!

Best moment this week:
Honestly this week I have been having contractions ALL day and I am starting to feel like I am going to be pregnant forever!!
Movement:
Krew is strong! We are able this week to notice he sticks his little foot out on my left side. It's really cute and hubbs loves it!!
Symptoms:
Still have contractions and a gross amount of discharge!
Food cravings:
I am still on my french toast kick but I am also craving Salmon pretty badly!
Food aversions:
Red Meat.
Gender:
All blue! ((:
Labor Signs?
I am completly thinned and baby is -1.
Belly Button in or out?
What belly button?
What I miss:
Conversations that aren't baby based!
What I am looking forward to:
Suprisingly I am ready for labor & delivery these past couple weeks my love for my husband has grown so much I can't wait to share this with him!
Weekly Wisdom:
Pray.
I have started to thank God every night before bed for all of the blessings I have been blessed with. It helps me feel happier and it really reminds me how truly lucky I am!

Milestones:
I can't believe I am 35 weeks! That's a milestone all in itself right?!

 

Birth Plan

As my besties are getting ready to see this pretty lady:
(aka) my favorite country female singer/role model/prettiest lady ever
 
in concert. I am here at home with my puppies blogging about my birth plan and making sure everything is in order as I will be the BIG 35/35 on Friday!!
 
I am a first time mom and I do not claim to know everything about child birth but I feel as though my husband and I have done our research when it comes to being as prepared as possible when it comes to the needs for us as a couple and for our unborn son. So after reading, researching my eyeballs out, crying, being frustrated, and asking my doctor thousands millions of questions. We have our birth plan set into place, my doctor has a copy, L&D has a copy and there is a copy that will be put into our bags for actual delivery! This is a short list that I cut down from a very very long list; the main things that are the most important to me.  Of course I know not everything goes as planned but without further adue little Krew's birth plan:
 
  • I wish to not have Pitocin administered unless absolutely medically needed
  • I do wish to have an epidural as soon as possible. (yes, I'm a bitch to labor pain)
  • Please wait for the umbilical cord to stop pulsing before being clamped, and allow my husband to cut the cord.
  • As long as our baby is healthy, I would like him placed immediately skin-to-skin. If I am unable to do so my husband will be in my place.
  • Please delay all non-essential routine procedures until after the bonding and breastfeeding period. (preferably one hour)
  • Our baby is to be exclusively breastfed, please do not offer any formula, artificial nipples, pacifiers or sugar water.
  • Allow my husband to bathe our baby for the first time in the room.
  • No visitors until after "Kangaroo Care" and husband and I have had our time. (3 or so hours)
Thinking of all of this happening in real life makes me tear up a little bit Ryan and I have worked so hard and come so far and I cannot wait for the moment when we are a family of 3. Just us to conquer the whole world! Please leave any comments you have on this and if you have tips, I'm going to be back later in the week/weekend with what I have packed for myself and Krew!!
 
 
I went to lunch with my bestie today and it was hard for us not to chuckle at my shadow! Can't believe in no more then 1 month I will no longer have this huge bump in my way!!
 
 

Baby Moon

Sorry you don't get to see my fat pregnant a$$ for my weekly bump post! I have come down with a terrible cold and to boot hubbs isn't home to take a picture he is hunting! Boo!! I figured I'd try to get caught up on my blog and post about the last exciting thing hubbs and I did which was our "baby moon" surprisingly a lot of people live in a hole and didn't know what one was, it is basically a honeymoon before the baby comes therefore; babymoon. I've heard some snide comments on them but I am so so glad husband and I were able to take one. (haters gonna hate) We went to Boise, Idaho for the Boise State VS. BYU game!! It was so so fun and I am a lucky girl and had my parents tag a long I love spending time with both of them and know it's precious time because whether we all like to admit it or not they are only going to be here with me for so long. So despite the 5 hour car ride that killed me we had such an awesome time and ventured and walked everywhere! People told me I was crazy and at 32 weeks I wouldn't feel like doing anything but I did! Here are some picture with a quick re-cap!



This cute lady on the horse is my favorite at every game! She always comes out with the team at the beginning of the game! I love horses!

No one hates BYU like a Utah fan. Yeah, I admitted it I am a Utah fan at heart but play the Boise fan role for my husband! I am so glad Boise took the kitty cats down on the smurf turf!
 
 
I'm sad you can't my bump well. After I had concession stand dinner my jersey was tight I had to hike it up a little! (;
 
Cute husby!!
 
 
 
For any of you new mamas I highly recommend taking a baby moon it was great to get away as a couple for the last time.
 
I'm hoping to get updated on this blog!
 
Next will be our birth plan, followed by what I am packing in my hospital bag! Here is a quick glimpse:
 
I am getting so so excited!!
 
xoxo

33 weeks!

I am happy to report well, I'm not happy to report that I am so freaking far behind on blogging but I am happy to report that I am doing very good and so is baby Krew! After our little scare in L&D last week I went for my 33 week checkup today and I haven't progressed any. I am completely thinned but I am not dilated and she cleared hubby to go hunting. I am still on bed rest and maybe not taking it as seriously as I should but I know my body and I feel really really good! No bursts of energy or nesting nothing like that just over all feeling well. So I am going to try and get my baby moon posted, along with my hospital bags that I am getting packed this weekend. I have a fun girls weekend planned so I will try my hardest! For now here is my 33 week surv..

(follow me on instagram: barraslover)
 
 
How far along?
33 weeks!!
 
Total weight gain/loss:
I am hanging steady right at 26 pounds!!
 
Sleep:
I surrendered even more, Unisom wasn't doing anything to me and I hate taking things if they don't help me so I resorted to taking a Tylenol PM last night and oh baby I slept so so very good!!
 
Best moment this week:
My doctors appointment today! It was very encouraging although I am still on bed rest I have not progressed any. In 23 days Krew will be full term!
 
Movement:
My little dude is a strong one. Plus he loves food like his dad!
 
Symptoms:
I do have braxton hicks a lot, and this is TMI and I don't even freaking care but I have a lot of discharge. Oh and my rib pain is back.
 
Food cravings:
French Toast!!
 
Food aversions:
Still red meat although I had 2 cheeseburgers last week.
 
Gender:
All blue! ((:
 
Labor Signs?
None this week every time I get up at night my bladder feels like it's going to fall right out of me.
 
Belly Button in or out?
What belly button?
 
What I miss:
Being a normal god damn human being. I want my regular body back!!
 
What I am looking forward to:
Just Krew. I just want to hold his precious angel self.
 
Weekly Wisdom:
I swear I won't have another child. I swear I won't ever be pregnant again! I am writing myself a miserable journal!
 
Milestones:
Krews bag is packed and the car seat is installed!! ((:
 
 

32 weeks!


How far along?
32 weeks + 5 days!!
Total weight gain/loss:
Jesus Christ I do not feel like putting this on the world wide web!
 
Sleep:
I've surrendered. Unisom is a twice a week thing and damn I sleep good!
Best moment this week:
Well this week has been a whirl wind to say the least! Krew had us in L&D for more then 3 hours!
Movement:
He is very vicious and strong!
Symptoms:
Unfortunately we have had lots! Post below!
Food cravings:
Pancakes, and french toast!!

Food aversions:
Red Meat still.

Gender:
BABY BOY!!

Labor Signs:
Again,
Post below!

Belly Button in or out?
It's officially FLAT!

What I miss:
I'm not sure anymore. I miss feeling normal, being my normal on the go self? I've finally taken a back seat and am letting Krew call all of the shots!!
What I am looking forward to:
I have a follow up doctors appointment tomorrow!


Weekly Wisdom:
Chill the F out!!
Milestones:
I just need to make it at least 5 more weeks with this little one in me. I will be full term and he is free to come! I'm finally off my butt and cleaning all of his clothes and will install the car seat as soon as I get my car detailed!
 
xoxo

M.I.muthafreaking.A.

Ello lovies,
Remember me? Crazy girl who swears a lot and is trying to cook a baby? Yeah, I'm here still here almost 33 weeks pregnant and trying to get my bean as cooked as possible! I have been MIA the past few days since our baby moon and the little scare we had that landed us in L&D with contractions and a very stressed out babe. I want to get this blog post in so I do not forget any details on this journey our little man has decided to take us on. So here it goes.

Monday morning I was cramping REALLY bad when I was driving to work I didn't think much of it since I haven't really had a break since vacation. Always on the go go go. I worked through the cramping until about 1:00 when I called my hubbs in tears. For him to tell me that I must be in a lot of pain to be crying really struck me. You're right I'm not much of a crier or a baby per say so I best get my booty home and try to relax. I arrived home around 2 and laid on the couch, took a Tylenol, and tried to take it easy. I just didn't feel right, I knew deep down that something was wrong so I made a call to my nurse and she told me to head straight to L&D. That I did, and thinking back I'm not sure how I drove myself there. Of course, hubby was unreachable at work at the time. I was freaking.out!!

So I checked myself into L&D, put the robe on, and let the nurse grope me to put the proper monitors on me. After about 10 minutes of them monitoring me I was having an oxygen mask flung on me, my legs spread apart, and them telling me that baby had quite the story for them and that I just needed to stay calm. At this point I am scared so scared and I just wanted a familiar face by my side. Luckily, my sweet nurse was able to get a hold of hubby and he headed my way. To make my long story short  I was having "irritability" contractions that were 5-7 minutes apart, they figured I was maybe dehydrated so they pumped liquids into me, my contractions still didn't take a back seat, they thought I had maybe an infection but my labs came back and that was ruled out. They did a strep b test and that came back negative as well. After being fed meds after meds to keep my contractions down and regulate, Krew's heartbeat was finally stable again. They did give me a steroid shot hoping to help his lungs develop "quicker" and stronger. I had a shot of morphine and was sent home with meds to keep my contractions regulated. So, I am on "moderate" bed rest and can go to work if I am feeling up to it. After talking with husband we decided it was best for me to start working part time so I went in to the office this morning and spoke with my boss, he was more then sweet and understanding and just told me to do what I felt best to have a healthy baby. As of today I am officially a part timer. I am happy with my decision. At this point helping Krew grow stronger is my #1 priority. If I start having labor signs after the 26th of October they will go ahead and induce me and will not prolong labor! I go for a check up tomorrow and will hopefully have more answers!

It's getting close and I am getting excited and anxious! Keep my sweet baby in your prayers as he still has 5 weeks till we are full term! I'm going to try and make it back tonight with a bump post! Love you all!!

xoxo

31 weeks!

I know I know, I need to update my blog more with something NOT bump/pregnancy related! I swear my life has revolved around this little man I have been growing for the past few months now! I eat, sleep, breathe, and think about Krew 24/7 I can't wait to see his sweet little face and tickle those precious feet he likes to have shoved in me at night!!

 
 
How far along?
31 weeks! If I say 60 more days it seems shorter to me! (:
 
Total weight gain/loss:
I think I am at about 23ish pounds I gain then lose it's really weird. I am going to talk to my doctor on Wednesday to make sure all is healthy!
 
Sleep:
What the freak is that? This past week my sleep has been TOTALLY whack! It's sad I love my sleep! I really hate having to take a sleep aide but I am seriously considering it, especially with 8 or 9 more weeks of work.
 
Best moment this week:
I am excited for my doctors appointment! I am interested in seeing if he has turned and his growth I haven't been in a month and it seems like forever ago!
 
Movement:
Oh this little guy sure is active! I love love love it! Even when he hits my sciatic nerve I love being able to feel him and being reminded of what this little thing inside of me and what a blessing he has been to my husband and I!
 
Symptoms:
This weekend has been one for the books, I didn't do anything yet I swear I ran a marathon! I've been so fatigued and have been having MAJOR back aches. Hot baths make me sick, and I can't get comfortable. 60 days Sarah!
 
Food cravings:
None this week actually, maybe a little mac n cheese, oh and thanks to my sister in law freaking Garden Salsa god damn SunChips! Yum!
 
Food aversions:
Red Meat still.
 
Gender:
BABY BOY!!
 
 Labor Signs:
None my BH's come and go
 
Belly Button in or out?
It's officially FLAT!
 
What I miss:
Being comfortable? Sleeping on my belly!
 
What I am looking forward to:
Our baby moon! We leave on Thursday!!


Weekly Wisdom:
I need to keep reminding myself to take it easy and not over due things. It's just my personality to feel like I have to be superwoman.
 
Milestones:
No real BIG milestones. I am hoping he has turned head down so I can count that in next week! Wish me luck on the 5 hour drive to Boise and back! Good thing I have Gossip Girl!!
 
xoxo

Gossip Girl

I caved I mother effing caved!!

(yeah I can't stand Blair so I left her out)
 
My BFF is the one whom got me hooked in the first place. & for this she needs a punch in the face ::punch here:: I do love her though.
 
I am almost through Season 1 and I started on Sunday! Lucky for me, this pregnancy is really starting to kick my ars and when I get home at night all I wanna do is lay on my couch so this is perfect! I catch up on GG through Netflix on my laptop and hubbs can still watch his NFL games. Happy marriage I'd say!
 
Anyways,
I'm kind of disappointed in myself I don't usually jump on the bandwagon to these stupid time consuming things but I think back and I was crazy for not starting earlier.
I must say I LOVE Chuck & Nate, and kinda sorta Dan. I can't really handle too much of little J or Blair. That being said my lack of blogging is all because of this little obsession!
 
xoxo

30 Weeks!!

 
 
Okay, there is no way I ONLY have 10 more weeks before I meet my little man. I mean 10 weeks give or take! It seems SO far but SO close when I think of all the things I have to do! We are going on our baby moon next week/weekend and I can't wait! I'd say I'm starting to embrace how big my bump is getting! Krew likes to jam to Lil Wayne, Drake, Rihanna, & of course The Doobie Brothers he is for sure my dads Grandson!
 
How far along?
30 weeks!! WTF!
 
Total weight gain/loss:
Back up to 20 pounds I go do the doctor next week so we will see what she has to say! Hopefully I gain a pd a week here on out!

Sleep:
Jesus I have been so busy and so "nesty" I literally melt into my bed at night! The mornings suck though I'm so sore & so tired I think I could lay there all day!!

Best moment this week:
I've managed to get A LOT done in his nursery we just have a few little things & will need to pack our bags cook a little longer sweet boy!

Movement:
LOTS & LOTS! I love it! Well okay, he gets into my left hip a lot and gives it a good kick!! Plus my right rib is ALWAYS on fire especially when I sit at my desk for a long time. I like his kicks though it's kinda like he is saying hi or "hi yaw"

Symptoms:
My burning hip and frequent braxton hicks are back! & holy F my acne!!
 
Food cravings:
Krispy Kremes man. Ugh.

 Food aversions:
Red Meat, I consider myself a semi veg. I will choke down chicken.
 
Gender:
BABY BOY!!
 
Labor Signs:
Do Braxtons count?

Belly Button in or out?
At this point I don't think it's going to come out anymore! I should probably get a picture of it to look back on. My mom and husband are weirdly obsessed with it. My sister pokes it.

What I miss:
Being skinny?? Yep. Skinny.

What I am looking forward to:
Our baby moon & freaking November!!

Weekly Wisdom:
Sleep Sleep Sleep.
I can't ever and will never get enough of it again!

Milestones:
Every week that passes is a milestone I think. I'm finally getting to the uncomfortable point so I'm trying to stay positive! Plus it's starting to cool down here in SLC hopefully that helps my mood! (:
 
I must share this!
10, 20, 30
weeks!!
 
xoxo

Fridays Letters

 
Dear husband,
 I am so proud of you. You have been cigarette free for almost 8 months, you have lost a substantial amount of weight and you have cut back on your drinking all for baby Krew. I can't thank you enough and am so happy you have finally jumped on my crazy families running/healthy train!! 70 more days!!
 
Dear person who tried to comment on my blog as an "unknown" source,
If you have the balls to comment poorly on my blog have the balls to at least show your face/admit who you are.
 
Dear Work,
Thanks for letting me get some overtime in tomorrow! Cha-Ching!
 
Dear Weather,
Please permit accordingly so husband, dad, and uncle can get our new roof put on this weekend!
 
 
 
 

If you can't handle the heat

Get out of the kitchen. ::no pun intended ms. simps.
.:.rawr.:.


I recently read on the Internet that Jessica Simpson "gained too much weight" during her pregnancy. Now, it isn't all coming off and she is wondering how/why it happened? Please read the article for yourself HERE.

Really Jessica? With all of the money you have, you couldn't have hired a pregnancy nutritionist? You couldn't have had someone cook for you more healthy meals then macaroni & cheese with ketchup?
Let me quote "I let myself indulge in everything I wanted because it was the first time I was ever pregnant, and I wanted to enjoy it. I wanted to be happy and eat what I wanted" I get that; I really do being 30 weeks, pregnant for the first time, and hungry ALL the time I understand how someone would just want to indulge. For me, I feel differently I knew that once I got pregnant I wasn't going to use it as an excuse to eat everything and anything. I've gotten a lot of slack for not gaining enough weight or not eating all of the food on my plate, I'm healthy, my baby is healthy & and my doctor is happy with my weight gain. I feel as though (and this is just MY opinion) a lot of women get caught up in eating everything and remaining "fat" for years to come it's not a good excuse to me. I still want to be able to identify myself aside from having a child and giving birth. Sure, it's a miracle and I am so very blessed to be able to endure such a thing BUT I am a women I do like to feel sexy and skinny and do want to wear cute clothes and a bikini again. I've always been one to eat healthy of course I indulge in ice cream, movie popcorn, chips and all of the goods but I know when enough is enough. I've trained my body to have the metabolism that it has.
I guess I just don't understand how someone finds out they are pregnant and goes on a ravishing eating binge. I don't starve myself and I enjoy food more then I should. Working full time and preparing for Krew hasn't given me all the time in the world to workout therefore I have to watch what I eat. Of course, I can always make time to exercise and think it's a crucial part of my health but ya know I sacrifice not indulging in unhealthy foods so that I don't have to take that extra time out of my day to exercise. I give and take if you will. I may have some mixed opinions on this topic but to each their own right? I just think you can be healthy and pregnant and be able to kick that baby weight off right after. It's all in what you eat! I'm hoping to look back on this post in Feb close to my goal weight of 107 again I understand my body is never going to be the same but I can sure as shit do everything in my power to be at or close to my goal healthy weight again. I have a family vacation in June & a triathlon in July! Hopefully all of my healthy eating pays off come November! Until next time...


xoxo

29 weeks!!


How far along?
29 weeks!
 
Total weight gain/loss:
For some reason I am down 3 pounds! So I'm up 20 pounds from my pre pregnancy weight which I feel really good about! I can't wait to get back into the gym again though!
 
Sleep:
This past week has been really good with the exception of Friday night! I do wake up sore as hell but I can't complain because I've been mostly sleeping all the way through the night! I've been so busy lately that when I hit the pillow I am out.
 
Best moment this week:
My baby shower! I am waiting on pictures back from the photographer so as soon as I get those I will do a full shower recap! It was amazing and I was so happy to see my family and friends come out and support Krew and I!
 
Movement:
Oh my dearest little Krew you LOVE mamas left hip and right ribs! You're a little stinker and I am getting a taste of my own meds already! I do love you though!
 
Symptoms:
I've had an amazingly good week minus the burning rib pain I get if I am sitting at my desk for too long! I feel the fatigue and exhaustion coming back though!
 
Food cravings: 
This weekend I have been craving Mc. Donalds which is the nastiest craving ever to me! If I know something is unhealthy I really try to avoid giving in to my cravings! I am loving grilled pb&j sandwiches though!

 Food aversions:
Red Meat
 
Gender:
BABY BOY!!
Labor Signs:
None!
 
Belly Button in or out?
It's 95% out!

What I miss:
Still running and not having all of the little aches and pains that comes with pregnancy!

What I am looking forward to:
Our trip to Boise at the end of the month! Wahoo for vacation!!
 
Weekly Wisdom:
Keep Calm
&
Call Mom
 
Milestones:
I am just amazed that I've already had my baby shower and the nursery is almost done! It's so crazy to me I never thought I would be this far along!
 
 
I've seriously had such an awesome weekend, probably the best weekend I have had in a really long time! Maybe since my wedding weekend? It's all been so much fun and it's all gone by so fast! I'm so lucky to have spent every single second of it with my amazing supportive husband and to have family loving and supporting us through the way! The nursery is almost finished and I will try and do a full tour on that as soon as it's finished!
 
Boise lost on Friday night! Not a good time in the Barras household!
The only picture hubbs & I got at my shower which was after driving home in the car! I love him so much!
I think the first thing we did baby wise after our shower was put the stroller together! I am so obsessed with this car seat stroller combo! It's so light and easy to assemble with just one hand! I can't wait to take it out on the streets and it looks so slick! Nothing but swagg for my only son!
 
I hope none of you labored to hard on this Labor Day! I had the day off and have spent it running errands and laying around with hubbs! My house smells just like dreft & I am about to go enjoy a bbq with my sweet little family! I am very very grateful for the place I am in my life.
 
xoxo
 
 

Friday's Letters


Dear Husband,
I had an amazing anniversary with you last night. Here is to many more years of bliss and raising our baby boy. I love you so much!

Dear Sunrise,
You made my 7 AM drive to work a little bit sweeter on this Friday! It was nice to see you, I don't remember the last time I was outside around dawn! It was gorg.
 
Dear Mom & Sissy,
I am real excited for my baby shower tomorrow and can't express my appreciation enough. Thank you for always being here for me and truly being my best friends through thick and thin. Together we could own the world.
 
Dear Boise State Football Season,
Thank you for being here but it's not cool to take so much of my husbands time. I do like football always have, but hubbs takes it too far sometimes. Still I'm excited to have you here and can't wait to take my little Krew man to his first game.
 
Dear Boss,
I have been craving f**king krispy kremes all damn week and you came to my rescue. Seriously you are heaven sent. Thanks for everything! A dozen just for my happy pregnant ass.
 
 
Dear 3 day weekend,
Move slow like a turtle. Or else.
xoxo

L.O.V.E

4 years ago on this day, at this church the bells were ringing and I had no idea what my heart let alone rest of my life was in for. I just knew one thing, I loved the man that would be standing at the end of the aisle waiting to spend forever with me.

I'm such a lucky girl.

These past 4 years have been such a whirlwind and anything but easy; but I think that's what has made them so awesome and yet blissful. Through all of it we have grown much closer as a couple and we truly know who is and isn't here for us who we can and can't lean on in time of need. We have been so lucky and blessed since August 30th of 2008 we purchased our first home, raised two puppies into cute happy doggies, accomplished some home improvements, vacationed, celebrated holidays, found out we were expecting, and now are preparing for the biggest most exciting change in our books to date. I am so grateful to be sharing this journey hand in hand with my dear Ryan.

(top left our wedding, top right is our 1st anny, bottom left is our 2nd anny, and bottom right is our 3rd anny)
 
I love looking at the picture collage and seeing how much we have both changed for the better, to better our selves, and to better our marriage and our strength as husband and wife and now mother and father! I can't believe it has been 4 years yet I feel like I have spent eternity with this man and I wouldn't have it any other way! Through the good & the bad I have him by my side and nothing warms my heart more.
 
"I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours."
 

     "I guarantee that we'll have tough times. I guarantee that sooner or later one, or both of us will want to get out. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life.. because I know in my heart you're the only one for me."
 
"And we are going to last, and you want to know how I know? Because I still wake up every morning and the first thing I want to do, is see your face."

   



28 Weeks!!

(i stopped doing my hair A LONG time ago)
 
How far along? 
28 Weeks!

 Total weight gain/loss: 
23ish pds! Husband recently went on a diet and bought a scale. I try to stay far away from it because I am already self conscious of my weight! I don't go to the doctor again until the 19th of Sept so I'm hoping to be able to stay on track till I hear from my doctor!

 Sleep:
Sleep? What's that. If I can manage to stay asleep all night I am usually fine but the second I wake up to pee that's all she wrote! Everything from bad dreams, to anxiety, to leg cramps! Trying to avoid sleeping pills though!

 Best moment this week: 
I FINALLY found a dress that I feel confident in to wear to my baby shower on Saturday! Also, REAL excited for the Boise State vs. Michigan game!

 Movement: 
My little man is an active guy already! Especially right before bed prepping mom for late nights! I can't wait!! I never did think I would say that though!

 Symptoms:
I'm trying to get better with my complaining! I am taking all the symptoms I can because this pregnancy is going to be over before I know it and I don't want to look back and miss it!

 Food cravings: 
Edamame, PB&J sammiches, Cake Batter

 Food aversions:
Red Meat

Gender:
BABY BOY!!
Labor Signs:
My braxton hicks have taken a back seat this past week!

Belly Button in or out?
It's 95% out!
What I miss:
Running, Drinking, Sleeping on my stomach, and wrestling with hubbs and my nephew!
What I am looking forward to:
The Boise State game Friday and my baby shower Saturday!!

Weekly Wisdom: 
Time is flying I am trying to stay cam and realize how BIG of a moment this is in my life I'm trying to enjoy everything!

 Milestones:
I feel like every morning when I wake up is a milestone, for hell sakes I am growing a precious human inside of me! Each week I am closer and closer to meeting him and kissng his sweet face!